pyoor_excuse | Universe 4 Kate 0

You know when you just have one of those days where everything you do/touch seems to go wrong? And you just feel increasingly, increasingly useless and like giving up altogether?

Well, so far today: Wiper blade broke on car, plum split liberally covering everything in my bag in broken up bits of plum, Poured half my yoghurt drink over sofa in "utterly stupid" incident, got essay results back: shit.

I passed the last assignment, I passed by a reasonable margin, but by my standards it was crap. Well, better than the worst one, but no where near the amount of work and effort I actually put into it. I know I picked a hard subject, but I knew if I picked an easy one I'd not do any work, and get a really crap mark.

But no, this time I just got a crap mark because I'm crap. I don't understand what they want, or how to give them what they want, or why they keep moving the fucking goalposts (I get praised by one marker for doing something which another marker then decrys as being totally inappropriate). If I try to cover everything it's not focused enough, if I focus on particular areas I'm not looking enough at the big picture.

I hate it, and I'm totally demoralised.

I feel like giving up right now. I'm just so fed up today. I know I didn't sleep well last night, I know I feel shite this morning. I know today is just "one of those days", but I'm sick of being broke, I'm sick of...I'm just sick of it all.