Alone

I'm feeling alone.

John and Jakob (and Michelle and Andrew) have been here all day today. We also met the woman who'll be conducting the ceremony for my dad's funeral and had a long chat with her. But they've gone now and that alone lonelyness has come back.

Washing over me... great waves of sadness.

I'm okay as long as I fill the space.

I have the greatest friends, but they've all gone out tonight, and I have no other phone numbers... My old university friends... I've not spoken to them for so long... I do wish I was better at keeping in touch.

My partner, she's gone out with my friends.

So tonight I'm alone. And curling up under a rock, somewhere.

As Requested by Emilydm

20 Random facts ('cos I got tagged by emilydm)
Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same number of people as minutes it takes
you to write the facts.

1 - I'm wearing my dad's ring, despite the fact I don't like wearing gold
2 - I bought my first car when I was 15
3 - I didn't have a driving licence when I bought my first car
4 - I can't remember the names of any of my teddy bears
5 - I've never bought a laptop, but I've had 4
6 - I've learned bits of: French, German, Norwegian, Russian
7 - I can't speak any foreign languages
8 - I've got brown hair
9 - I wear contact lenses
10 - I really hate the glasses I've got at the moment but can't afford to replace them
11 - I first started an online journal in august 1999
12 - I first designed a website in 1996
13 - I've got a degree in Biochemistry
14 - I got *exactly* the pass mark to get that honours degree, 1% less and I'd've had a certificate of wasting 3 years.
15 - I've always wanted to have my hair short
16 - No one ever lets me cut my hair that short
17 - I can strip and rebuild most parts of an MZ or a Morris Minor
18 - I was 21 when I came out to my parents
19 - I am struggling to come up with 20 random things
20 - My first bedroom after baby-hood had red roses on one wall which my dad had to quickly replace 'cos I hated them....


Five minutes, but then they're not very interesting facts. Here we go anyway: alexa_robinson, c0re_dump, chrisy_m_uk, loopback0, lyric_splat