In a change from our advertised programming

[pyoor_excuse]

Today I decided to take care of myself. In a rare change from my normal behaviour... I stopped on the way into uni, turned round and came home.

Why?

Because yesterday, my mum informed me that my dad had decided that if this operation does not work, or that the surgeon decides he's can't do it, then he wishes to die. He's only kept fighting this long for me and my mum, and he's given up.

I need some time and space to deal with this. So today is for me.

Comments

[emmavartdal.livejournal.com]

Don't know what to say, so *hugs*

[inspector-81.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.
Take care.

[lyric-splat.livejournal.com]

I know this may sound horrible, but I am glad in a way that he's come to this decision. He's fought this disease with incredible will -- out of sheer love of life and love of his family -- but I hate the idea of someone so loving and loved going through so much pain.

*hugs you and doesn't let go*

If you need me to get on the next train, I'm there.

[chrisy-m-uk.livejournal.com]

I have a little fluffy toy bug sitting on my monitor which says 'You are not indisopensable' i.e. work will get on without you, it would even if you never existed.

You made the right choice hun *hugs*

[multiphonikks.livejournal.com]

You know my feelings and my thoughts are right with you now.

I'd not wish this on my worst enemy, least of all my best friend.

And yet, here you are, going through the same thing...

[pyoor_excuse]

Thanks to all you guys, it does make a difference knowing people care...

I'm much better today, incidentally. A long, long chat with Trey on the phone last night left me feeling like a human being again. I know I need to take care of myself and I *am* going to. I'm considering going and seeing my councellor, but I don't feel like it'd help today. If I start to feel like it'd help I'll be there quicker than uh, a quick thing on Saint Quick's day.