Is it me?

[pyoor_excuse]

Is it my organisation that's killing me - or my lack of it?

Is it my desire to be a nurse?

Is it trying to do a degree, trying to sort out Regolith, trying to keep a an MZ and a Morris Minor going without the cash for basic repairs?

Is it living in a house that's way beyond my means?

I dunno. I'm not down, don't think that I'm down. It's been an odd day, watching season 2 of the L word - I've got one episode left, apparently, the finale of the L word Season 2 - which I'm really desparate to watch, but haven't got yet. (no spoilers, I promise (to be fair, my only spoilers were totally false ;-) ))

I've got several things on my mind:

- Learning objectives from this placement
- Essay for module which has to be in on the 14th June
- "Exchange" Parts have to go back - which means taking them off the engine they're on.
- Rebecca still needs 'final' jobs (like fitting the right carb - and therefore obtaining an exhaust manifold for me to cut up)
- Eyetest
- Regolith (ex-company with huge debts that I used to run)
- Tax I've not paid yet. Fuck.
- Money I'm owed by the NHS.
- Preping 'beccamog for Pride, and doing the playlist [both things I'll really enjoy, but need to do].
- And so on.

The TV Licencing people have written to me, again, saying I don't have a licence. They sent round a TV Licence inspector, and he took all the details... and again they're sending threatening letters. These days I just let them. They can turn up if they want. They can waste their money, I'm not spending my money on ringing them.

When I got in to uni today, the first thing anyone said to me was 'You look knackered'. It's how I feel. I need this upcoming week to not do anything big - but I know that I have some jobs that 'need' doing. A thought which does not fill me with joy. I really need to actually do the final Regolith accounts. I really do. But I hate doing it, and it's just going to be depressing.

And scary.

Blah.

I just don't feel like working right now. I just uh... want to lie back and let the world wash over me for a bit, but it doesn't seem to want to do it. BLAAAAH. Tired blah. Need snuggles - and some time with Trey. That's what I need.

Comments

[loopback0.livejournal.com]

The real question here is how much longer are you going to let regolith drag on because you dont want to deal with it. All the rest is a trip to the post office, out to cribbs for an eyetest, and normal fayre.

Sorry if this sounds harsh, but looking at that I figured you were calling out for some help motivating yourself to get it done - its the only bit of that that really stands out, and its the bit thats eating away at you at the back of your mind.

Clear your head, sort that out, and youll be fine for the rest.