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pyoor_excuseI dunno why, I still feel really quite down. I think being tired and ill is just doing nothing good for my mood (well, duh) - that and the whole monetary situation. That's quite depressing in its way, I mean, I thought I was doing quite well. Well, I was, and then this month, well, I guess this month and last month my costs have been rising - what with my placement being so far away, I mean a 60 mile commute every day is alright when you're earning 20k, but when you're getting 2k/year it's rather more painful.
I now have my milage claim form to hand in, so hopefully I'll actually get some money back in a bit. The whole problem with this is you have to cope with the lack of money for the 20 days that the form takes to fill in, plus the 20 days it can take to be processed before you get your money back.
So from that first 20 quid on a tank of petrol you're down until the time you actually get the money back, well, that's the period of time that you have no money at all. Companies don't, as a rule, like "I'll pay you when I get some more money" as a response.
Still, if I get some shifts in (not this weekend, but the weekend after.... I have to skip the funky show I was going to go to, 'cos I'm going to Pride... and so I'll have to work Sunday) - so I best book a shift in. I'm going to be *dead* if I have to keep this up much longer though.
I mean, working 6 days out of 7, and when I'm not working then doing something to maintain the car, or whatever....
It's all getting a bit stressful. And it's definately taking it's toll on my health - which never exactly brilliant seems to be disappearing faster than um, something, that well, disappears very quickly...um, yes. Anyway.
Although, that said, the drinking /little sleep / eating crap / not eating at all, unhealthy lifestyle I seem to have picked up since moving actually seems to have cured my liver. Or maybe it's the weight I've shedded. I dunno, I think I like the idea that my body needs me to treat it like crap. It probably got confused when I was being nice to it.
So, yeah, I dunno really.
Should go down and get on with some work I guess. I've got about half way though the stuff I need to do before Wednesday. Although I've not done any of my reflections. I need to do some reflecting. Perhaps I should coat myself in silver ;-)
Actually, I have got some stuff to 'Reflect' upon this time. I've got some stuff where I think about it and I think "hrm" - that's about all I think, but I'm good at waffle, so I can expand that out to sound meaningful.
Incidentally, I can't tell if my eyes are feeling better, or not. 'cos it's warmer today and my hayfever might be back. It's difficult to tell when you've got a cold and conjunctivitis whether the blocked nose and itchy eyes are due to the cold/conjunctivitis or pollen. The thing on the side of hayfever is that there's no more icky goopy yellow stuff in my eyes, and my eyes look less sore.
Yeah. Oh, and being single *sucks*. Did you all know that? I sleep so much better when I'm with someone, and now, now I can't sleep a-bloody-tall. Which sucks. Ah well. That's enough, isn't it, for the morning?
I now have my milage claim form to hand in, so hopefully I'll actually get some money back in a bit. The whole problem with this is you have to cope with the lack of money for the 20 days that the form takes to fill in, plus the 20 days it can take to be processed before you get your money back.
So from that first 20 quid on a tank of petrol you're down until the time you actually get the money back, well, that's the period of time that you have no money at all. Companies don't, as a rule, like "I'll pay you when I get some more money" as a response.
Still, if I get some shifts in (not this weekend, but the weekend after.... I have to skip the funky show I was going to go to, 'cos I'm going to Pride... and so I'll have to work Sunday) - so I best book a shift in. I'm going to be *dead* if I have to keep this up much longer though.
I mean, working 6 days out of 7, and when I'm not working then doing something to maintain the car, or whatever....
It's all getting a bit stressful. And it's definately taking it's toll on my health - which never exactly brilliant seems to be disappearing faster than um, something, that well, disappears very quickly...um, yes. Anyway.
Although, that said, the drinking /little sleep / eating crap / not eating at all, unhealthy lifestyle I seem to have picked up since moving actually seems to have cured my liver. Or maybe it's the weight I've shedded. I dunno, I think I like the idea that my body needs me to treat it like crap. It probably got confused when I was being nice to it.
So, yeah, I dunno really.
Should go down and get on with some work I guess. I've got about half way though the stuff I need to do before Wednesday. Although I've not done any of my reflections. I need to do some reflecting. Perhaps I should coat myself in silver ;-)
Actually, I have got some stuff to 'Reflect' upon this time. I've got some stuff where I think about it and I think "hrm" - that's about all I think, but I'm good at waffle, so I can expand that out to sound meaningful.
Incidentally, I can't tell if my eyes are feeling better, or not. 'cos it's warmer today and my hayfever might be back. It's difficult to tell when you've got a cold and conjunctivitis whether the blocked nose and itchy eyes are due to the cold/conjunctivitis or pollen. The thing on the side of hayfever is that there's no more icky goopy yellow stuff in my eyes, and my eyes look less sore.
Yeah. Oh, and being single *sucks*. Did you all know that? I sleep so much better when I'm with someone, and now, now I can't sleep a-bloody-tall. Which sucks. Ah well. That's enough, isn't it, for the morning?
