pyoor_excuse | Bring it back to me

I'm so tired. Exhausted almost. Physically wrecked. I think I'm managing enough sleep at night to allow me to just function during the day. There's not much left for extras, like cooking, cleaning and eating. All my friends keep telling me I'm not eating enough or not looking after myself properly.

Grr.

The worst thing about it is suspecting that they're right. Or moreover knowing that they're right. I'm not eating properly, I'm not exercising, I'm getting too little sleep. God, yesterday I was scared driving to work I was so tired. There were a couple of occasions I was really nervous about, well, hitting things (vehicles, kerbs, crash barriers) - becuase I didn't feel properly awake. I've got much more sleep now, and I feel much more alert, but yesterday.... was bad.

Unfortunately, there's not much I can do - not unless I win lots of money unexpectedly; or suddenly the bank doesn't want it's money this month.... So. The only solution is for me to work, hence working 21 days. In all that, I'm only actually working a few extra shifts, it's just with 2 days off a week, you only have to work 2 days and voila, no time off.

It's nearly time for me to have a shower.... maybe a bath - my back is giving me hell this morning for some reason. Possibly related to the 'difficult transfer' I did with a patient last night. Still. Anyway.

I suppose I should go wash, hrm, eat. What I'd really like to do is go back to bed. Which is really quite tempting, but then I wouldn't get a shower 'til tomorrow afternoon. Bah, sod the shower. I'm going to sleep.